As Tony Stark once said,
The fact is, it is true, resentment is corrosive. Let's face it, all of us at one point in our life have said or asked if Karma is real, tell me I am wrong. You know I am not, the thing is when we're hurt or we hurt someone, we either hope that karma will teach them a lesson or we feel so guilty about it that we worry about our karma (well, the ones with a stronger sense of ethics do)
And so many times it has happened that we see them all happy and indifferent to our pain, it makes you wonder where the justice is in that situation. We end up staying in a loop of waiting and yearning for them to understand and acknowledge our pain or to come and apologize for how they hurt us. It's like we need them to validate the pain we feel as if it will magically heal the pain they have left behind, it doesn't, even if they do apologize, it doesn't take away the fact that your heart did shatter, and that you did feel betrayed and that you did feel broken. But can I say something honest and even brutal? The pain you feel is mostly because of the resentment you feel towards them for hurting you and for the yearning you have for them to receive their karma, that's why you keep hurting while they stay happy.
For someone to face their karma, they need to have a level of self-awareness and accountability and growth mindset, only then they can understand the pain they have inflicted, intentionally or unintentionally and that is when they push themselves in situations or with people that will make them feel the consequences of their actions in different ways, sometimes they understand it, sometimes they don't. Sometimes you find out, sometimes you don't! But by waiting for it, you just keep yourself stuck in the consequences of your own choices, the choice to feel the pain constantly, the choice to hold on to the snake that bit you, the choice to keep drinking the slow poison that eventually kills you from within.
Let me share an experience from my own life, as someone who has been on both sides of the spectrum, I am someone who has always had long-term relationships, in my college days, my first boyfriend cheated on me with my friend and that was heartbreaking to the point that it took me years to be able to trust my next long term partner with any close friend of mine. For months, I hoped for him to face his karma, but he never did, then I let it go and saw him as the person who wasn't worthy of my love, and I kid you not, karma wasn't kind to him for years and I did find out, but by that point, I was like, I hope he can be a better person for someone else. My heart was at peace and I could finally let go of my trust issues, forgiveness for him set my heart free. That forgiveness wasn't for him, it was for my hurt heart.
Now, on to my next long-term boyfriend, it was amazing, he was an amazing soul, we did love each other but eventually, we had to face long distance and he started feeling more disconnected from me, not being able to provide emotional availability or reassurance o of his feelings when I needed it and instead of expressing it clearly, I started shutting him out, eventually feeling attracted to someone close enough to me, instead of cheating, I broke up with him to pursue that connection but the guilt of leaving behind that connection was so high that I ended up in a karmic situation with this new person, which kept ongoing for 2 years and it took me 4 years to let go of it emotionally and energetically. That is how I had weaved my karmic debt.
So yeah, this was long long story maybe or maybe it gave you the insight you needed, But I can say, karma is as real as the air you breathe but resentment makes it corrosive for you. Karma is not what you think it is, it is more intricate.
And here's one of my fav songs about karma -
Love and Light,
Adrija Choudhury
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